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yes lol actually more like l just l or ls i.e. laughing silently i feel weird i dont know if what happened yesterday meant something didnt mean anything or conformed what i thought all along

i put a finger down my throught and made myself vomit twice so that my mother would hear me , come to me and wont fight with me anymore

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and the fight was pretty silly and my mum would have talked to me by the next day but all i could think was i want pity , sympathy , and love NOW like right fucking now and that i just couldnt bear going to her and kissing her and making up with her and saying sorry even though its not my fault

and i got it i got the love and sympathy and i also got a rashy thing on my face that i always get when im stressed , coughed alot or vomited

ls

i feeel no no you know what i wanna do i want to hit someone and punch someone until i hear something breaking or see blood

did i tell you about the time i broke an injured birds neck

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im not upset or depressed its just im so weak and i cant take it I JUST CANT TAKE IT a couple of days ago something dangerous happened and all my folks were scared except me and my mum got upset .. ls … and was like you have no feelings and i was like whatever is meant to will be whats the big deal if we died we died and she was like you should thank god but i did thank god and my folks just looked at me ..

its just that

well im not a pornstar i cant take it

a9oom o af6er 3lah B9alah

we begin on a pleasent note :

WHAT I HATE

public displays of affection how crude and rude actually any displays of effection that doesnt involve me is crude and rude and uncivilzied

fat ugly chick with hot guy im sorry im a cunt i know but honestly it loooks wrong why god why it looks so unsymettrical ?? what word am i looking for here

and my baaaaby 7ob 7yate sabab thaya3y manba3 foaady noor 3omrey elnaa9aaab elm’3azalchy weld elda5alyah a7eeeebah ya naaaas a7ebah 7ata wana a5onah a7ebah aaa5 ya galby 3laih ….

but u know what i miss . I really miss it … ‘3azal elbado i highly recommend it if you wanna know true romancing date a bdwey give him a bit of that vulnerable ultra feminine sweet crap and he’ll want u and love u and give u that jaw that fucking jaw and you’ll be floating on air

I wish he was bdewey …But elzaain has great ‘3azal and romancing too more leaning to na9ab than ‘3azal but its all good kel shay menah good ebgoood

U think elzain will agree to fucking a guy infront of me ? Well he was in the kolyah ha ha ….. 3AIB …. A7ebaaah

And i really must sort out my only orgasming with myself shit last time i was agressive and shit and stilllll i went home and got off by myself !! Offffff

And back to my baaaaby nahar ashwaaaqey where is he now u say where else in ba7rain , or maybe dubai or maybe egypt these are their main official mating grounds ….

Men 3yaal …. to weld …. 3aad ya5asoon mako shebh moqaranah ma yeswaaaanah but sometimes a7es we have nothing in common our regular communication is a series of ‘ aa5 3laich’ and ‘aa5 3laik’ ya3ni sometimes i say stuff in english and i cant translate it well like when i translated ‘ when it rains it pours’ and not just that about reading he made fun of me reading novels and said i should read something historical but still … He s one of the few guys i ever talked abt my family about … And im so me around him … Aa5 3laih